Starting over sounds scary, doesn’t it? I associate that phrase with a new beginning, and beginnings are the opening to something new, something unknown. It’s building everything you’ve built, only to leave it behind and work towards something else, from the ground up.
I had spent the last four years in Montana getting my undergraduate degree and making some of the best memories I have had so far in this lifetime. But, three months ago I left that familiar and was shoved into the unknown. The big bad wolf that I knew would eventually come, came sprinting at me, knocking the wind out of me upon impact.
Seattle had been on my radar of places to move to upon graduation since my junior year of college. The more and more I talked about it, the more I fell in love with the idea of it. It had all the perks that I wanted – it was close to my hometown, the mountains, the city. A few weeks before my big move I had a very important relationship in my life come to a screeching end, so, I picked up and moved two weeks early. With my SUV packed, heart-broken, and life unplanned, I had made it to Seattle. I should probably tell you I arrived without any sort of work and enough savings for only a few month’s rent.
Fast-forward to now, and it is the beginning of November. I hadn’t noticed that three months, a nice little piece of time, had gone by. I realized that I had survived, and was still surviving this new beginning of mine. Sometimes I forget that this process is not supposed to be easy, and it’s definitely not, but I can tell you, that I guarantee that, at some point, it will have all been necessary for me to grow into who I want to become.
Starting over has been the biggest “big girl” move I have ever made. I moved to Seattle, to pursue a dream of journalism, and am learning to invest energy into myself now. I pat myself on the back for taking a leap of faith and can’t picture myself anywhere else at this point in time.
So I say to the women who are scared to start over: Look at your new beginning in a big picture sort of way. Is this going to challenge me? Is this going to help me grow into the woman I want to become? If you answer yes to these two questions, start over, start all over. Be proud of everything that has come onto your path, that has led you to the leap of faith that you are about to jump into.